The need to live up.
We live multiple expectations all at the same time. The ones we often do not think about are our own. But those close to you may not always agree.
I have had to deal with a situation where expectations from those around have begun to hurt. To the point of being offensive. I had to quiet the inner voice that screams to defend myself. Only because my culture. Upbringing and tradition does not recommend or encourage ego fueled outbursts.
But the fact remains, my ego has been attacked. And I learned that it can be truly violent if egos are unchecked and yet it is one’s ego that allows one to respect themselves.
And mine was attacked.